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Kittens Journal  

MackayKinkster 60M
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2/3/2020 2:41 pm
Kittens Journal


First Meet

Why the hell am I doing this agreeing meet a stranger the middle of nowhere the middle of the night talk about putting yourself risk, really smart move. This could be awkward but surprisingly it’s pretty relaxed all things considered Sir has a sense of calmness about him it puts ease. The conversation is pretty general no pressure a few pertinent questions then Sir just starts stroking the back of legs, bum very gently, reaching through finger , stroke clit and remove pants before beginning give a sound spanking while keeping continuously aroused and cuming it’s all pretty intense. Sir seems have a sense of when stop spanking just when I don’t know if I can take anymore, he then runs his fingers gently over ass the pain received before he does this heightening the pleasure of a gentle touch. It becomes a bit of a blur I don’t recall the spanking being overly painful more a sting, I remember being bent over while Sir fingered ass which I loved I think I may have even been pushing back wanting more, longing feel his cock buried deep ass. Time seemed stand still I was pretty sure some stage legs were going give . Driving home I realised we had been on the side of the road for a couple of hrs roughly, it all felt a little surreal really, I wonder what Sir thought of it all? I wonder if it will happen again? It felt good hand over control surprisingly considering I’m a control freak, it felt like a release from all the shit in life right now, I was able relax a little. I hope it happens again and if so can’t wait see what comes next.

Second Meet

We have met again it’s funny I didn’t feel nervous well not until I heard Sir pull up any, then the doubts flood in insecurities taking over most people don’t pick them but Sir notices straight away, so it’s as I thought under calm demeanour is a sharp observant mind, makes the man too bloody perceptive oh well suck it up part of wanting this was because of the honesty involved. Sir showers first and I’m not sure what to do with myself ’s different. I’m finding the intensity ( which I love ) of it all blurs things I can’t recall any extent what order things happen just they have happened, I know Sir has inserted a toy I feel it pulsing while ass is being flogged, I know a crop and paddle and lash are used, all bringing a completely different sensation the mix of pleasure and pain is like nothing I’ve experienced before, intense and intoxicating. I’m told to straddle Sir lying on back where Sir proceeds spank pussy which I enjoy for a start and then it becomes unbearable but me being me I don’t use safe words until I’m told to and even then not straight away and then I go straight for stop which pisses Sir off and for which later on I’m punished though I suspect I got away lightly with one. Lesson learned though. I wonder if Sir realise sometimes I need learn the hard way I have see the consequences for myself ( and I wonder where my gets it from ) though I’m pretty sure I won’t like the results.
I’m secretly impressed with Sir recovery time or more accurately the lack of time involved and before I know it I’m on knees sucking and gagging on Sir cock much surprise I dont really mind gagging ( though I worry a little about actually throwing up because ’s not going be pretty for anyone). Once inside and with Sir buried deep in ass ( love feeling ) he then proceeds make without even touching , just by ordering it wouldn’t have thought possible and there is nothing like cuming with a cock in your ass.
I’m finding the whole thing relaxing if ’s the right word I find mind isn’t racing a million miles a hour afterwards ( though it probably should be ) and I’m content just let it be, what ever happens happens.

Third Meet

Sir came up today to and it’s funny I look forward his arrival yet the minute he arrives I’m instantly nervous maybe because in every day life I’m not a sub and worry I will displease him, I’ve always done the opposite of what I’ve been told and yet I have strong desire please him it’s a strange feeling but also very liberating be able give up control of everything, though the irony in is during Sir was giving a lesson control, see I am not allowed unless I ask permission first and for awhile Sir would not allow this the extent I had use safe words stop him from playing with ( if I had lost control the promise of the crop hard on arse would be a lesson I don’t think I would forget) I also think he was testing see if I had learnt lesson from last time on using safe words. I came very close feeling crop several times.
I tasted Sir properly for the first time when he arrived as we went the rock pit admire view and he ordered suck his cock which is always so hard, it’s a pleasure suck and run tongue over trying to take it as deep into mouth as possible and then feel him spill into mouth while being told not to waste any it’s very satisfying to be able to please Sir in this way, to know even if we only have time for a five minute meet he can least use mouth for his pleasure which turn gives pleasure knowing I have pleased him.
It still all blurs into a very intense experience and I struggle to be able to think coherently the time or the order which things happen which is quite surreal.
Sir has tied arms behind back he uses a soft rope and there is no discomfort what so ever he has on back and he’s playing with his cunt sticking his fingers inside, rubbing his clit and putting a thumb into his arse while I fight not to and then ( I think ) he puts nipple clamps on his tits ( something I have never enjoyed before ) but surprise the feeling of clamps seemed go straight clit, I’m struggling with the words describe the intensity the combination of pain and pleasure caused making harder than ever.
I know Sir is taking it easy on , teaching the pleasure of pain ( there’s a contradiction) in a gentle way which I appreciate and I find I’m starting enjoy the pain more each time because of this.
I would have never thought I could by having pussy pinched all over or by the feel of teeth biting or being slapped be it pussy, tits or arse. Or simply by just being told to.
But nothing really bets the feeling of Sir’s cock using his holes, to feel him driving hard into you knowing he’s taking his pleasure from using his holes and probably more so when he fucks his arse the feeling as he drives hard and deep and then the dragging like sensation as he pulls do it all again while times grabbing me by the hair pulling head up, I just love the feeling of Sir’s cock being deep in arse the sensations are exquisite and probably part of it ( for anyway ) is it feels like total domination.

Fourth Meeting

Sir came up to teach me the errors of ways for not keeping him informed as when I would be home a timely mannner.
natural inclination was argue the point being as Sir had never stated I was do this, but I’m smart enough know would be a requirement and know argue the point would only make matters worse for ,
Sir caught unawares when he showed up as I had not checked ph for a message. So I did not feel clean or presentable for Sir.
One of the things had the most impact during punishment of 5 lashes with the belt across arse was when Sir informed me there are no safe words during punishment was a complete shock as the back of mind was Saftey net it completely cemented I am Sir property do with as he wishes, and by the tone of his voice he meant exactly what he said I was not move and make no sound, I didn’t need be told do so would only make matters worse for myself. Sir has quite the knack for delivering each lash in the same spot leaving my arse feeling like it was on fire, it was a burn I felt for the rest of the day. I’m fortunate Sir is a fair man as he hadn’t told specifically keep him informed of movements I only received 5 lashes instead of the standard 10, a I think I will really struggle with though I know if I was carry on during a punishment I would only make matters worse for myself. I shocked myself a certain extent by agreeing this as I have always demanded equality so agree become property be used or punished as Sir sees fit regardless if I think it is fair or not seems go against everything I stand for, but the real difference is I choose do this, I have without persuasion or pressure totally agreed to become Sir property lucky for me Sir is prepared teach a way I enjoy the whole experience.

Fifth Meeting

Sir came up this morning I find I’m enjoying everything more and more each time and I truly desire be his<b> dirty </font></b>little slut, when he first arrived he went and showered telling go with myself and as I did so lying on the bed legs spread wide open ( something I wouldn’t have done previously) fingering myself I was aroused by knowing I was exposed fully for Sir when he walked . I find being owned makes everything more intense and erotic have no say how I’m used or what I’m do.
be sitting on Sir with his cock in his cunt while he lashed back, the combination of pleasure and pain and the knowledge whatever Sir chooses do, it is his right, your are his property and you will obey or be punished (also knowing there are no safe words when being punished there is no ) it’s just sheer pleasure of a kind I’ve never experienced before. I love being owned, being used, I’m enjoying the pain more and more partly because I know Sir enjoys flogging spanking etc, partly because it brings great joy Sir has chosen use which is quite a privilege itself and partly because I just like the sensation of pain it heightens every feeling. Even the nipple clamps are becoming a pleasure the intense pain they bring going straight clit and even being made hold the chain in mouth like a bit was highly arousing, so it seems if it’s something Sir desires then on alone I will enjoy it, just because I want him use fulfill all of his desires.
I love the marks and bruising Sir leaves on body for they are a constant reminder I am his property and I consider myself lucky he is teaching slowly ( which I’m sure must be very frustrating for him ) so I get enjoy him using .
And the feel of his cock when he slides it into be it pussy or arse is incredible, feel him sliding in and , or buried deep is the ultimate sensation pure bliss.
I know I will struggle with the discipline side of things being as I have always done exactly as I pleased so it will be interesting see how I cope with

Sixth Meeting

Sir came up tonight to and having not been allowed with myself or during the last couple of days and all day thinking about being used by Sir I was very very horny by the time he arrived. It’s funny how it feels like the most natural thing in the world be naked front of Sir.
Sir had lean on the bench for a start while he ran his hands over his property not touching his cunt was driving crazy and when I felt the first sting of a good hard slap on arse it was all I could do not . I’m really loving the pain and pleasure the burning of arse after a few good hard slaps and even the nipple clamps the pain they bring is awesome, sir bound hands behind back after slapping arse and then placed the nipple clamps on and made sit on the bed while he showered, sitting there bound with burning arse and pain coursing through nipples and loving it, feeling owned and there solely for the pleasure of Sir, though I need mention the belt Sir ran it between legs and then used it rub his cunt very enjoyable maybe the belts not so bad after all. I really enjoy being controlled made suck Sir cock because he feels like it, though I do enjoy sucking Sir cock, the taste of him, actually I really enjoy Sir cock no matter which of his holes he uses or how he uses it.
I’m not sure what Sir inserted into tonight But I loved it on a couple of different levels, one just the fact Sir wants to put things in his holes makes it enjoyable, I really get off on being owned and the knowledge Sir can do as he pleases and the feeling of fullness was incredible especially when Sir was his hole it was very intense I couldn’t stop cuming and I think this is just the tip of the iceberg, I believe Sir is still gently leading into place as his ( I was going say Sub but it feels more like slave ) but whatever you want it it’s fantastic I can really feel inner<b> dirty </font></b>slut growing and loving it may it continue grow until I am completely a hundred percent able be used exactly as Sir desires for would be the ultimate.

Seventh Meeting

Sir came today.
and it just keeps getting better and better, i was instructed before Sir arrived in how i was to be presented when Sir walked in and i was not to talk or move order alone made incredibly horny which only intensified when i knew Sir was standing behind , while im spread wide open for him use as he pleases, lucky for i was allowed will because im not sure i would have been able stop myself anyway. Sir bound my hands behind my back and i do thoroughly enjoy , he inserted a but plug up arse and attached nipple clamps, im starting love those clamps, the pain and the pleasure, or is just im so into Sir using it doesn't matter what hes doing the fact hes using is enough, no i don't think so the pain is now just as important as the pleasure im finding and when i know Sir is coming and im wondering what he will do it is the pain im thinking about, getting wet and worked up and the knowledge Sir will use how he wants, and today with a butt plug up arse and as he slid his cock into and i could feel every movement, i cant explain the overload of sheer pleasure brings, be full, be used, and be so well and truly fucked is just awesome. I consider myself lucky Sir chooses use , he is taking the time teach how enjoy the pain as well and i well and truly enjoy every moment of being used, i love i have no say and if i was protest punishment would follow, as i am owned provide him pleasure no matter how he chooses take it and strangely enough if feels like the most natural thing in the world be his possession something be proud of, i hope i serve him well, i hope he will continue train/own so he may use for all his pleasures no matter what they are.and how im looking forward learning curve, who knew being property, someone else toy or giving your power away could be so freeing and feel so good.

Eight Meeting

Todays was incredibly intense, Sir had instructed while work I was not allowed or touch myself and the same time he had given me a good indication of what our next would be like, so 8 days of thinking about being restrained while Sir used led 8 extremely frustrating days. Sir ordered when he arrived I was be naked on knees on the bed head down hands spreading arse cheeks wide, I was not move or speak nor was I allowed and oh god what a struggle was, just the simple act of Sir inserting a butt plug, made want , hands are cuffed behind back ( I do so love being tied the feeling of vulnerability ) arse in the air, butt plug inserted and so horny having being deprived and even more so because Sir is using , I love being used by him, the pain he inflicts and the pleasure, he starts by spanking arse, I love the burning sensation his spanking does arse, which was followed by the paddle, it becomes a blur the order of things then, I’m fighting so hard not , arse is well and truely on fire, clamps are already on nipples and have been for a bit so there’s also exquisite pain as well then the crop comes I feel it’s sharp pain on already burning arse, then tits feel the bite of the crop and oh god when he bought the flogger and he’s delivering hard blows back which I love, I don’t know how I prevented myself from cuming then the feel as my back is lashed and the ends curl around my body hitting the side of my tits the same time, tits, arse and back are all on fire the pain is intense and still I have fight not come because every bit of pain I feel is a pleasure because it means Sir is using me and is greatest pleasure, then made lie on back legs spread wide while Sir lashes his cunt, I’m consumed by pain and yet Sir’s cunt is so bloody wet and I’m still fighting not , and when I’m allowed it’s so intense it’s indescribable the combination of pain every where and cumming so mind blowing I will never be able go back vanilla sex again and it only continues get even more intense as I straddle Sir and feel his cock sliding into his cunt in deep, tits being lashed the same time, then turning around back being lashed again, the pleasure of his cock and the pain of the lash and I can’t stop cuming and even more so when he slides his cock deep in arse picking up the crop using it on tits before placing it in mouth bite on as he starts really pound arse and some stage of all this I’m then gagged loved , but when he was pounding arse hard and grabbed by the hair yanking head up burying his cock hard and deep in arse, still feeling each blow he has delivered everywhere ’s when I knew I was truely his<b> dirty </font></b>little slut a slut who absolutely loved being used utterly and completely in every way.
I believe I have only experienced the tip of the iceberg and I’m looking forward being being shown how Sir likes use his sluts because I cannot possibly convey how much I love being used being owned nothing but his property fuck lash restrain insert what he wants where he wants where he wants control completely and this slut greatest desire and pleasure is being used by Sir.
As I right this cunt is wet and though quite sore places I can think of nothing better right now than being restrained body on fire from spankings, the crop and you buried deep in arse gag mouth as you continue lash or teach a new way you like take your pleasure from your sluts

Ninth Meeting

I’m still loving our immensely probably even more so now Sir is playing harder. Love being made present myself wide open Sir as he walks his holes instantly available for his use.
hands are tied behind back and tits bound tight, nipples clamped, butt plug arse ordered onto knees suck Sir cock, stood up slightly bent so arse can be spanked, then the paddle and then the crop. A bigger butt plug inserted then flogged and cuming all the time, there is nothing better than being bound, used feeling the pain Sir chooses give , leaving his mark all over tits and arse, I love when arse is burning, nipples clamped the agony running straight down clit makes wonder what it would be like have clit clamped. And the feeling of Sir sliding his cock into one of his holes it’s exquisite makes wet writing this and I’m fast becoming addicted being used I can’t think of anything else I’d rather be doing for when Sir is using I’m a state of bliss

Tenth meeting

Today was definitely a reaffirmation this is for . Sir came up today he had me wait for him outside looking as slutty as possible ( I may have to get some slutty clothes ) Sir went to shower and when he came back informed me today was actually all about vanillia (definitely wasn’t expecting ) so away we go start having some perfectly nice vanillia sex ( cake is nice also and half an hour later you have forgotten you have had it ) thank fully I was allowed speak up and let Sir know I wanted more I wanted him use like normal ’s what I was looking forward , ’s what had horny and wet when he arrived and thankfully Sir told go get some toys and things started getting great again, I grabbed the flogger as its one of favourites and just relished the feel of it striking body, Sir was mindful of where he struck as I still have lovely bruises from last time we played, spending more time flogging his pussy in which I’m starting increase the level of pain I can tolerate there, and as I had been wondering what it would be like to have clit clamped (as I do love the nipples clamped ) Sir showed and its awesome high pain but also the sensation of just about cumming at the same time I loved it, clit is throbbing just the thought of it now, taught myself a valueable lesson with it though as Sir had hold the chain of the clamps in mouth meaning unless I wanted pull on the clamps I needed keep head forward but as I was cumming ive yanked head back dragging the clamp off clit a level of pain I’m not quite ready for just yet. I love now every time we Sir is giving a new experience each time, striking me harder. Love being his slut and being used everywhere, though unfortunately no bondage today as there was a good possibility we would be interrupted which was a shame do so love being bound being placed in Sir desired positon for easy use or shoved onto knees suck Sirs cock. Just the thought of Sir using nearly puts over the edge, love hes unleashed the<b> dirty </font></b>slut cause you cant beat the intensity of being a slut ’s being used the pain, the pleasure its all so equisite and I’m so looking forward being used in new ways as we go along cant wait

Eleventh Meeting

Sir come up use his holes today he gave the choice of how I presented myself him so of course I chose slut, I do enjoy being his slut, so outside I sat a tiny bit of lace across tits and high heels on, one leg up on the table and the other spread wide and I was rewarded for as Sir had suck his cock right then and there. was stepped up again harder than last time and it was fucken awesome, hands tied behind back, bit gag mouth (loved ) collar round neck, dildo up arse as Sir spanked and flogged only stopping to bind tits and clamp them I loved every blow then there’s the new crop, what a sting it can deliver had nipples extremely tender and sore, Sir is very good reading , he knows when I’m not far off using safe word and so moves on another area. I wanted so badly but didn’t want I wanted the pain just keep on going and the moment Sir removed the clamps from nipples who knew pain could be so exquisite and then straddle Sir bound with his cocky deep his pussy while he flogged back, butt plug still deep arse I was never going be able not I lost battle the second Sirs cock slid . Sir went shower but before doing so taped a vibe his pussy right on the clit I couldn’t have stopped cuming if I wanted to ( god why wasn’t I doing all this 20 years ago ) I love being a slut, being used, to be flogged and fucked having all holes used, the pain and pleasure is beyond compare I just want more and more I truely desire when we be nothing more than his<b> dirty </font></b>slut take his pleasure from, be spread wide open and used any manner he desires, feel the pain he gives and know I am privileged be used by him, be given the honour of sucking his cock, being allowed swallow his . And I love the way Sir keeps stepping it up every time we pushing a bit more than the last time, I lucked when we met he teaches a way you thoroughly enjoy and makes you just want more and more

Thirteenth meeting

Sir came today, and for having previously during the week given Sir 100% control made it more intense but also more relaxed and comfortable.
I was given the choice of how present myself Sir when he arrived the direction being slutty and ready be used ( and after quite a few days of not being allowed touch or and looking new toys had just arrived I was definitely ready) so when Sir arrived I was laying on the side table, I had moved chairs the side rest feet on, knees bent, legs wide open and far enough apart Sir had easy access both those holes and with head hanging over the side of the table his mouth was readily available as well.
stayed outside for some time where I had the pleasure of being flogged, spanked by the paddle and crop, so when I return work I will have the privilege of seeing his marks on body visual reminders ( as if I’d forget anyway) of being used as a slut should be by Sir.
I was then led inside by Sir as he had on a leash today ( collar and leash being one of all time favourite’s) the new experience of having holes stretched and filled, if I had been ordered stop cuming there would have been no possible way I could have obeyed, and hopefully over time I will be able to experience the feeling of Sir fist deep in cunt.
I have also decided get numerous piercings as Sir has a great imagination I can’t wait see how he will choose use them.
desire please Sir and be used by him any form has well lowered inhibitions as after as we showered he ordered kneel, told how regulate the flow of urine and I proceeded swallow every drop without hesitation, privileged have Sir use for his pleasure be able please him.
On a foot note I will feel the burn and tenderness of arse for days which will most definitely keep a smile on face.

Fourteenth

I was given the choice today on how to present myself to Sir knowing some would be the bathroom I choose be their, I tipped a outdoor chair over and sat on the edge, head leaning against the wall with feet up on the legs of the chair ensuring I was spread wide open when Sir walked through the door and as allowed I proceeded with vibe so was extremely close cuming when Sir arrived.
Sir got the crop and proceeded use it on tender areas the inside of thighs, the bottom of feet felt for a couple of days, across arse and a couple of hard solid whacks across back which I throughly enjoyed.
Sir then had something new in store for me first enema which I was surprised find I enjoyed, it was quite erotic.
I was then lead by collar and leash inside be bound and used as I should be

Fifteenth

A Quickie today as Sir has limited time presenting myself on the bed on my knees, head down, cheeks spread silence but allowed to as I wish. Sir mainly concentrated on stretching his cunt firstly using the lrg expanding dildo I own then using his hand highly enjoyable both and I still hope one day he will be able insert his fist. Marking has been kept arse so there will be no bruising for when piercings are occur a shame but necessary.
Sir has then used his arse hard and deep one of favourite things before having spin around so he can his mouth and it was a large load with not a drop wasted.

Sixteenth

today I was told to be outside a filthy slut desperate for attention so firstly I wrote across tits “ Sir’s filthy slut” and then “ cunt for use” above cunt, I sat on top of of a bench seat leaning back against a ladder, I attached a couple of pegs with a small chain onto the lips of cunt an attempt be spread wider, more open and inviting Sir. I was not speak nor ( incredibly difficult being as I hadn’t been allowed touch or for a week beforehand) Sir bent over the table and proceeded spank and paddle arse, slap tits before leading inside by leash and attaching nipple clamps, restraining arms with wrist cuffs clipped together while he fucked cunt still not allowed ( not sure how I actually prevented from happening) before he pulled then ordering while continually slapping cunt, amazing sensation the sting of a slap while cuming, made over and over hard before being allowed suck Sirs cock, feel it down throat when he holds head down unable move. Then when he flipped over and drove his cock deep into arse instantly making bloody hard with each stroke till he filled arse with his . So worth the week of no touching.
I was meant to be punished this time round with 10 lashes of the belt for not doing writing, deservedly so as I had intentionally not done them not even thinking about the disrespect I was showing and after having a week think about the belt I’ve decided the anticipation is actually a lot worse than the event, and I’m pretty sure the reason I don’t like the belt is not so much the pain it causes but it’s the fact I’ve been disrespectful enough deserve it.
Not long after Sir had left an opportunity came up make a start on the piercings I want so managed get hood and 4 rings through lips done the others follow. I’m hoping find a way be unconscious when happens lol

Seventeenth

Sir came up today to use his slut and to give the punishment I had earned. Punishment such a mixed bag of feelings I hate I have been disrespectful enough deserve punishment but the feeling of being controlled and the humiliation of it be made ask for another one, know Sir has every right the world treat you as he sees fit is well and truely reinforced during punishment definitely love/hate just need find a way get punished without being too disrespectful. Today was incredibly intense ( partly because of being punished) cunt could not be used due to piercings still healing so arse was hammered different size plugs, a tail, spanked, flogged, the belt the crop while bent over Sirs mercy, nipples clamped hard, fighting hard not come till back is lashed with the belt, flogger put over the edge hard ( for lashed on the back screams ownership ( Slave ) obviously watched many Slave movies youth, but each hard lash from whatever is used at the time the feel of it, the sound of it says your property use as I wish, he lash feels like being claimed and marked as yours, making me horny thinking about it. Today really felt like ownership every step of the way ( another reason it was so intense) to be made to kneel and impaled up the arse while you went and showered you will place your slut your desired position, impaled as you wish while you go and do as you wish the feeling of humiliation and control again, then be bound on knees and allowed lick, and suck your cock, your balls and arse hear the odd groan of pleasure, feel you shove your cock down throat I can not describe the pleasure I get being used by Sir for his desires for really is greatest pleasure and I truly hope one day you will use satisfy every desire. I’m beginning think journey into this is leading more towards Slave than submissive.
I really disappointed myself when I couldn’t for you when ordered and the sensitivity of nipples caught by surprise so I apologise for disappointing but thank you in the wonderful no fuss why you handled it and giving the time get myself together, yet another reason why you have complete submission.
I have to admit sometimes I worry I’m not enough ( I don’t really no how explain it ) and you will end up bored with which I would hate but wouldn’t hassle you over either umm.
I know I’m not really describing our but figured I do these so you have some idea where I’m so hopefully this gives you some idea.
Short version I love being owned, controlled and used by you in every possible way it’s awesome so Thank you Sir for everything you give me throughout this experience it’s one I’ll never regret.

HAMONMAN 64M
13128 posts
2/3/2020 2:50 pm

binge reading


superbjversion2 68F  
24388 posts
2/3/2020 4:21 pm

interesting that you choose to write from the sub female point of view and not your own

Opportunity may knock only once, but temptation bangs on the door forever!


MackayKinkster replies on 2/3/2020 5:00 pm:
Is the subs journal written by the sub as a task

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